Thursday, 7 February 2013
Honesty...Should I stay or should I go now?
So I've spent this last month debating continuing my blog or not. I had decided to have a break from blogging in January anyway, but when I stopped blogging it set me to thinking about whether it was really worth carrying it on.
As it happens, I'm still undecided. I think for now I'll keep the blog running but only until I make a definite decision. I think I need to reassess my reasons for blogging.
I have been feeling generally disheartened by my continually plummeting Tots100 score despite the fact that my stats are improving so much. I know that the Tots rankings aren't based on that, but I feel as if all my work on the blog isn't worth it. I'm all for promoting my blog, and I do so on Twitter but it seems that every week there is some other new thing I need to be doing to promote my blog. I honestly feel that it takes away from the time it takes to write content. I know many people manage it all effortlessly but I feel like Twitter is enough for me. Twitter is such a wide audience and with RT's and FF's you can end up with a huge audience. I simply don't have time for Technorati, Klout and G+!
Being honest, besides that, I was feeling a little left out too. Everyone is so excited to go to Britmums and I know I won't be going. Twitter is full of the excited chatter of who was going to meet up, share rooms etc. I felt like I was the kid at school who never got to go on the school trip. Other bloggers would be meeting and forming bonds and I would be missing out.
I shouldn't complain. I know that. It isn't that I can't afford to go, I just took the decision not to. The cost of return travel from Scotland, accommodation, the ticket and any other expenses by the time I got home would probably exceed £250 (that is a conservative estimate). I am certain I would have had a great time if I decided to go, but I can think of so many other things I could spend that money on. For my daughter, for me, for our family. I would honestly feel very selfish and guilty spending that money on myself. That's just me I suppose.
For now though, I need to give myself a good talking to. Try and get out of this blogging funk I'm in. I've made my decision and I'm sticking to it. I'm sure everyone going to Britmums will have a fab time, and will have a great experience with so much to blog about. I look forward to reading all about it!
Sorry about the self pitying drivel. I just needed to get it off my chest. Clearly I am an ass-basket of epic proportions.